Earned

Teaching others

How to treat

Oneself can be a daunting task

Many of us don’t feel that we deserve

All that is owed to us

Submitting to be given less than we’ve earned

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Same Old Love

I keep going back to you
And pushing you away

Why do I do this

Is it your fault or mine

Will there be a time when we get it right
I really don’t want to have this fight

You can get mad at me, but I can’t at you

But who made that rule

When I’m the only one forcing myself to follow it

The cycle only ends when we both agree to stop it

But for now I guess

We’ll keep each other in our back pockets

Without You

Might be possible I’m better off without you

Even though you have your uses

Life would be much simpler, though I’d be a “worse” person

Based on certain societal moral standards

Of course, without you it’s not like I’d care about those

Realistically, I’d be more fun, and a lot less stressed

People put a lot of stock in you

But I’m not so sure I should

Not anymore

 

 

Quit

I can’t quit you

Though maybe that thinking is setting me up for failure

 

I mean I’ve tried once

That didn’t stick

 

Then you broke things off

I was sad but also happy about it

 

Though I knew that wasn’t really the case

I imagined it as this strength you had that I did not

 

It was mainly you overreacting

Though I guess I also “misunderstood”

 

You came back

And I was happy about that too

 

I tell you again we should end it

And you agree

I tell you we should have one last meeting to end it properly unlike last time

And you agree

 

Now we wait to see if it sticks…

 

 

 

 

 

Deny

Can’t have what you want

But that’s not really true

You want two things

Two things that are complete opposites

To please one part of yourself

Is to deny the other

Will you continue to torture yourself

Or will you make a choice

Can you make that choice

If 25 years is any indication I’d say no

But then again, making no choice

Is a choice in and of itself

Are you trapped to always deny part of you

Or are you bold enough to have your cake and eat it too

via Daily Prompt: Deny
Deny