Home With You

Can’t go with you
Won’t go with you

But would you even ask me to

Convincing myself that I can’t have you

At least not in that way
You made that quite clear that day

There’s the part that wants more
And the part that knows I’ll only get less

So for now I’ll just say you do you
And tell myself I won’t be going home with you

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Same Old Love

I keep going back to you
And pushing you away

Why do I do this

Is it your fault or mine

Will there be a time when we get it right
I really don’t want to have this fight

You can get mad at me, but I can’t at you

But who made that rule

When I’m the only one forcing myself to follow it

The cycle only ends when we both agree to stop it

But for now I guess

We’ll keep each other in our back pockets

How

How many times will I write about you
How many times can I write about you

When will it be too much
If that’s possible

When will I be over you
If that’s possible

How can I imagine what could have been
How is it that I feel that same hurt over and over again

Wish that they didn’t take you away
Wish our timing would have been better then I wouldn’t be here complaining

Time moves forward
Slowly, but still

Somehow I’ll make it through
I promise, I will

End?

They’ll always come first
And that’s how it should be

I just need to get used to that
But can I at least

Be a thought
Or a consideration

We have fun
But then there’s no conversation

You told me what is was
When we first started out

Sometimes it seems like there could be more
But I do have my doubts

Once the big reveal was made
It was clear that this needed to end

I just wish I had the strength
But my weakness always pulls me back in

 

Quit

I can’t quit you

Though maybe that thinking is setting me up for failure

 

I mean I’ve tried once

That didn’t stick

 

Then you broke things off

I was sad but also happy about it

 

Though I knew that wasn’t really the case

I imagined it as this strength you had that I did not

 

It was mainly you overreacting

Though I guess I also “misunderstood”

 

You came back

And I was happy about that too

 

I tell you again we should end it

And you agree

I tell you we should have one last meeting to end it properly unlike last time

And you agree

 

Now we wait to see if it sticks…