Can’t go with you
Won’t go with you
But would you even ask me to
Convincing myself that I can’t have you
At least not in that way
You made that quite clear that day
There’s the part that wants more
And the part that knows I’ll only get less
So for now I’ll just say you do you
And tell myself I won’t be going home with you
I keep going back to you
And pushing you away
Why do I do this
Is it your fault or mine
Will there be a time when we get it right
I really don’t want to have this fight
You can get mad at me, but I can’t at you
But who made that rule
When I’m the only one forcing myself to follow it
The cycle only ends when we both agree to stop it
But for now I guess
We’ll keep each other in our back pockets
Lovely night
Only get a few in life
Never thought it’d be with your type
Even tried to fight
Lost in time
You were never mine
Seeking
Intimacy
Not
Gonna
Lessen
Expectations
How many times will I write about you
How many times can I write about you
When will it be too much
If that’s possible
When will I be over you
If that’s possible
How can I imagine what could have been
How is it that I feel that same hurt over and over again
Wish that they didn’t take you away
Wish our timing would have been better then I wouldn’t be here complaining
Time moves forward
Slowly, but still
Somehow I’ll make it through
I promise, I will
They’ll always come first
And that’s how it should be
I just need to get used to that
But can I at least
Be a thought
Or a consideration
We have fun
But then there’s no conversation
You told me what is was
When we first started out
Sometimes it seems like there could be more
But I do have my doubts
Once the big reveal was made
It was clear that this needed to end
I just wish I had the strength
But my weakness always pulls me back in
Never could have
Imagined
Very vivid false dreams of you, random thoughts after long lapses of time
Even though we weren’t really together that long, if at all
Keep coming back to me, but keep your secrets to yourself
I can’t quit you
Though maybe that thinking is setting me up for failure
I mean I’ve tried once
That didn’t stick
Then you broke things off
I was sad but also happy about it
Though I knew that wasn’t really the case
I imagined it as this strength you had that I did not
It was mainly you overreacting
Though I guess I also “misunderstood”
You came back
And I was happy about that too
I tell you again we should end it
And you agree
I tell you we should have one last meeting to end it properly unlike last time
And you agree
Now we wait to see if it sticks…
If people always only want one thing from you
Is it because of the community you're a part of
Is it the type of people you attract
And if that's the case
Is it because of the type of person you are
Should you accept your "fate"
Or try to change
And is there anything wrong with you if you don't
